I finally bleed on my own today, is that mean I am free
from Asherman now?
It has been raining on and off for 3 days here. Tell you what, rainy days always made feel very serene in a way and a simple beverage of ginger tea is just what you need on a cold rainy days.
I brewed a pot of ginger honey lime tea today, which is very easy
to make. What you need are ginger (here I used a lot of ginger), smashed them
open like you smashed garlic for sauteed then add up honey and lime suited your
needs. I really love the real kick from the soothing ginger, it gives you a lovely
extra warmth on rainy days while you sit back and relax on the couch.
My 22nd June appointment was cancelled due to Dr. I's
business trip. Another ultrasound scanned today was alright. I obviously do not
need any Provera or Progynova anymore to bring on my next cycle. So really
crossed fingers, my next cycle will be on time naturally. Take note here:
uterus lining was at 7.6 mm, break for a cycle or two I am allowed to enter the
2nd IVF.
By the way, when DH went to the cashier desk, I also noted there’s an
increment of Dr. I's consultation fee, almost 60% rise in rates, so one shot
consultation becomes IDR 400.000,- now from normal rates. Hmmm....60%
rise, its not an up-tick increase anyway huh?
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Alright..so
here I am again, flashed back a bit..I did my D&C on 24 March, and I still
have got no period even after getting all period symptoms such as dull, throbbing, cramping, bloating, weight gain. I went
checked my b-HCG levels which has already down to <5, so I am perfectly clean.
DH scheduled me to meet Dr. I today - by means my period has been absent
for almost 2 months and 2 weeks, err… a red light as they said. After an ultrasound
that showed no bad news, Dr. I prescribed Provera 10mg and Progynova 2mg for
10 days to bring on my period and said I’ll probably get mine between 16th
– 22nd June. He also mentioned about Asherman syndrome which scared the
heck out of me. However, I was asked to see him again on the 22nd
June.
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| The Truth About Fruit |
Proverbs 18: 21 says, “Death and life are in the power
of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof!
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| morning always gives me hope in time of trials |
As I’ve gotten older, the joy of a sleep-in has become a thing of my
past. Now I used to get up before the sun and spend a little quiet time being
thankful for the fresh day ahead, not the least of which is bear witness a
magnificent beautiful sunrise.
My mundane routine would be step outside basking
myself in the warm sun and lingered over my lukewarm green tea. I always full
of wonder at this amazing sight. Who could ask for a better
beginning for such a blessing?
04.00 am I woke up and passed blood clots with mild cramp. DH packed up and took me to the hospital then I was admitted to One Day Care for D&C. I was so nervous. I have laid in bed completely awake for 3 days by now, when I got a chance to have a small talk with Dr. ARS (anesthesiologist) and his assistant, I wish they can sedate me deep enough for maybe 1 or 2 hrs after D&C.
The D&C procedure performed
by Dr. I only taken about 7 minutes as confirmed by DH. But the worst part
(besides feeling rotten emotionally) was waiting for what seemed like an eternity. Post
D&C, I was wake up in bits and pieces, feel groggy and thirsty. Alive but a corpse inside.
At 2.30 pm, I was released
and they let us take the remains home. I am so over.
[01.30 pm]
Get my ultrasound today.
No luck. Our little one started to bleed and my gestational sac started
to collapse and shrinking. Dr. I told us it would only be a matter of couple days for me to have miscarriage. He presented both sides of what we can do but
suggested us of having D&C. I was so crushed. I really don’t know what to do, I have been on
such an emotional roller coaster past few weeks in this waiting miscarriage
game.
[04.00 pm]
We finally decided and agreed to book for D&C
tomorrow at 10.00 am.
Medication Lists:
Gastrul, 1 to be taken orally at 10.00 pm tonight and
another one to be inserted vaginally at 07.00 am in the morning (3 hrs before
D&C)
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| Lisa Faulkner & Billie |
By SIMON CABLE
PUBLISHED: 22:30 GMT, 6 March 2013 | UPDATED: 21:31 GMT, 8 March 2013
For years, Lisa Faulkner tried everything to conceive the baby she so badly wanted. Round after round of costly IVF treatment wiped out the actress’s savings and left her ‘a walking mess’ – all for nothing. The 41-year-old, now the proud mother of an adopted daughter and dating MasterChef host John Torode, has spoken of her struggle to start a family and the heartbreak of failed IVF.
Miss Faulkner said: ‘It’s a really, really tough process. I don’t
think people have any idea until they go through it. ‘It’s not just the
physical stuff – it’s the emotions and the hormones that are pumping through
your body. ‘You’re on this whole trip of desperation for a baby and you’ll
do anything. I was determined that I would be a mother.’
She underwent four rounds of treatment, at a total cost of
£35,000. In an interview in The Lady magazine, she added: ‘I said I’d give IVF
three goes, and I ended up doing four. I spent all of my savings. But also
mentally, I couldn’t go through it again.’
Miss Faulkner, who starred in BBC show Holby City and won
Celebrity MasterChef in 2010, married actor Chris Coghill in 2005, three years
after they met on the set of the drama Burn It.
They began trying for a child, but she suffered an ectopic
pregnancy at six weeks which left her with only one working fallopian
tube. Miss Faulkner decided to seek private fertility treatment when she
was in her early-30s. She would have been eligible for free NHS treatment but
chose to pay to avoid long waiting lists.
During IVF, an egg is removed from a woman’s ovaries. It is
fertilised in a laboratory and returned to the womb. Private treatment can cost
£10,000. Miss Faulkner said: ‘Every day I was injecting myself [with
medication]. I was a walking mess of hormones – crying all the time. I was
emotional, sad and just desperate for it to work. It was
horrendous.’ Exhausted, the couple researched surrogacy before adopting
their daughter Billie in 2008 when she was 15 months old. She is now six.
Miss Faulkner, who presents a daily Channel 4 food show, What’s
Cooking?, added: ‘I wanted to be a mum for a very, very long time and I feel
very blessed that I finally am. ‘I love Billie so much and I want her to
have everything that she could possibly have.’
She and Coghill split in April last year and she began dating
Torode, 47, in October after they met on MasterChef.
She has spent time working at his Smiths of Smithfield restaurant
in London, and they appeared together on BBC1’s science series Food Factory.
IVF
wiped out my life savings and left me a mess, says TV star Lisa
Faulkner. Actress, 41, spent £35,000 on four rounds of unsuccessful
treatment. 'I was a walking mess,' said former Celebrity MasterChef
winner. Adopted daughter Billie in 2008 when she was 15-months-old . 'I
feel very blessed that I'm finally a mum' she said.
I should be 9 wks today. My ultrasound showed baby's CRL at 0,284 cm. Dr. I told us it’s not an ideal pattern, our little one was measuring weeks behind in growth and again we decided to wait for another 2 weeks to get another ultrasound done. I am clutching at straws here – hoping to see baby and heartbeat then.
Starting from 11 Feb – 02 Mar, I did my blood test of our own will, sometimes to make sure that my b-HCG levels would increase at the appropriate levels. However, below is the breakdown:
11
Feb 2013 – b-HCG went up to 279.79
20
Feb 2013 – b-HCG reached 2024.00, slowly increased.
23
Feb 2013
We went to see Dr. I today for internal ultrasound and
showed him my b-HCG results. The ultrasound showed my gestational sac at 0.72
cm and gestational age at 4w5d. Dr. I said the numbers were not increased significantly.
However, he asked me to remain positive and keep the benefits of all these doubts. Dr. I suggested us to come back again on 9 Mar for ultrasound.
2
Mar 2013 - b-HCG went up to 4867.55. The numbers were still slowly
increased.
I am wondering if anyone ever experience b-HCG
rise-drop and rise again in this way and able to go full term with a healthy
baby? I am really hoping against hope that things will turn out well.
09 Feb 2013 (CNY-eve)
It seems my happiness didn’t last long. My b-HCG level dropped
from 169 to 128. Dr. A texted me to stop consume Duphaston and Ascardia, and
ask me to consult with Dr. I when I am ready. They said things about embryos do not grow
properly, and it will be a miscarriage waiting to happen.
Totally shattered!
Totally shattered!
