04.00 am I woke up and passed blood clots with mild cramp. DH packed up and took me to the hospital then I was admitted to One Day Care for D&C. I was so nervous. I have laid in bed completely awake for 3 days by now, when I got a chance to have a small talk with Dr. ARS (anesthesiologist) and his assistant, I wish they can sedate me deep enough for maybe 1 or 2 hrs after D&C.

The D&C procedure performed by Dr. I only taken about 7 minutes as confirmed by DH. But the worst part (besides feeling rotten emotionally) was waiting for what seemed like an eternity. Post D&C, I was wake up in bits and pieces, feel groggy and thirsty. Alive but a corpse inside. 

At 2.30 pm, I was released and they let us take the remains home. I am so over.



[01.30 pm]
Get my ultrasound today. No luck. Our little one started to bleed and my gestational sac started to collapse and shrinking. Dr. I told us it would only be a matter of couple days for me to have miscarriage. He presented both sides of what we can do but suggested us of having D&C. I was so crushed. I really don’t know what to do, I have been on such an emotional roller coaster past few weeks in this waiting miscarriage game.

[04.00 pm]
We finally decided and agreed to book for D&C tomorrow at 10.00 am.

Medication Lists:
Gastrul, 1 to be taken orally at 10.00 pm tonight and another one to be inserted vaginally at 07.00 am in the morning (3 hrs before D&C)



Lisa Faulkner & Billie

PUBLISHED: 22:30 GMT, 6 March 2013 | UPDATED: 21:31 GMT, 8 March 2013


For years, Lisa Faulkner tried everything to conceive the baby she so badly wanted. Round after round of costly IVF treatment wiped out the actress’s savings and left her ‘a walking mess’ – all for nothing. The 41-year-old, now the proud mother of an adopted daughter and dating MasterChef host John Torode, has spoken of her struggle to start  a family and the heartbreak of  failed IVF.

Miss Faulkner said: ‘It’s a really, really tough process. I don’t think people have any idea until they go through it. ‘It’s not just the physical stuff – it’s the emotions and the hormones that are pumping through your body. ‘You’re on this whole trip of desperation for a baby and you’ll do  anything. I was determined that I would be a mother.’

She underwent four rounds of  treatment, at a total cost of £35,000. In an interview in The Lady magazine, she added: ‘I said I’d give IVF three goes, and I ended up doing four. I spent all of my savings. But also mentally, I couldn’t go through it again.’

Miss Faulkner, who starred in BBC show Holby City and won Celebrity MasterChef in 2010, married actor Chris Coghill in 2005, three years after they met on the set of the drama Burn It.

They began trying for a child, but she suffered an ectopic pregnancy at six weeks which left her with only one working fallopian tube. Miss Faulkner decided to seek private fertility treatment when she was in her early-30s. She would have been eligible for free NHS treatment but chose to pay to avoid long waiting lists.

During IVF, an egg is removed from a woman’s ovaries. It is fertilised in a laboratory and returned to the womb. Private treatment can cost £10,000. Miss Faulkner said: ‘Every day I was injecting myself [with medication]. I was a walking mess of hormones – crying all the time. I was emotional, sad and just desperate for it to work. It was horrendous.’ Exhausted, the couple researched surrogacy before adopting their daughter Billie in 2008 when she was 15 months old. She is now six.

Miss Faulkner, who presents a daily Channel 4 food show, What’s Cooking?, added: ‘I wanted to be a mum for a very, very long time and I feel very blessed that I finally am. ‘I love Billie so much and I want her to have everything that she could possibly have.’

She and Coghill split in April last year and she began dating Torode, 47, in October after they met on MasterChef.
She has spent time working at his Smiths of Smithfield restaurant in London, and they appeared together on BBC1’s science series Food Factory.

IVF wiped out my life savings and left me a mess, says TV star Lisa Faulkner. Actress, 41, spent £35,000 on four rounds of unsuccessful treatment. 'I was a walking mess,' said former Celebrity MasterChef winner. Adopted daughter Billie in 2008 when she was 15-months-old . 'I feel very blessed that I'm finally a mum' she said. 



I should be 9 wks today. My ultrasound showed baby's CRL at 0,284 cm. Dr. I told us it’s not an ideal pattern, our little one was measuring weeks behind in growth and again we decided to wait for another 2 weeks to get another ultrasound done. I am clutching at straws here – hoping to see baby and heartbeat then.



Starting from 11 Feb – 02 Mar, I did my blood test of our own will, sometimes to make sure that my b-HCG levels would increase at the appropriate levels. However, below is the breakdown:

11 Feb 2013 – b-HCG went up to 279.79

20 Feb 2013 – b-HCG reached 2024.00, slowly increased. 

23 Feb 2013
We went to see Dr. I today for internal ultrasound and showed him my b-HCG results. The ultrasound showed my gestational sac at 0.72 cm and gestational age at 4w5d. Dr. I said the numbers were not increased significantly. However, he asked me to remain positive and keep the benefits of all these doubts. Dr. I suggested us to come back again on 9 Mar for ultrasound.

2 Mar 2013 - b-HCG went up to 4867.55. The numbers were still slowly increased.

I am wondering if anyone ever experience b-HCG rise-drop and rise again in this way and able to go full term with a healthy baby? I am really hoping against hope that things will turn out well.